#what are you thinking?

#what are you thinking?

So, how are you feeling today? The counselor in the white blouse asks. I find it hard to concentrate on an appropriate answer as his cheap, toned-down blue T-shirt creates an immense border. The border between trusting him and trusting me. The border between being saved and wallowing in the same sort of routines until […]

#darling, is it raining where you are?

#darling, is it raining where you are?

See, it’s raining again. My darling is sitting by the windows opening to the glass house garden. I call her my darling because her presence has taken over my life and my will to live since a year ago when I saw her for the first time in the supermarket. I asked her where she […]

#how are you?

#how are you?

A tribute to my mother in free verse. Hope it will be worthy of all her sacrifices. You lie awake at night, as I lie next to you, convulsing, trembling, wandering in the land of the Death. If I must be honest, I was on the border when you turn around holding me down and […]

#i can’t sleep

#i can’t sleep

He throws the pillow at me to wake me up. It’s five in the morning. I can’t sleep, he says nonchalantly as if that is enough of a reason to wake me up. My eyes are trying to figure out whether it’s my beloved that I see, or just a cruel shadow of someone who […]

#rain

#rain

I thought we would go out today, you say, but instead, we are staying home and watching the boring TV show, and listening to the sound of the pouring rain outside – Are you out of your mind? He curls into a ball on my laps, spilling his complains the same way a bartender spills […]

#will you just decide

#will you just decide

Gloria, will you just decide Gloria, there’s easier ways to die. – The Lumineers, Gloria He throws the glass at me. It is the tenth time this week. I think it’s still nice compares to the last time when he throws everything at me twenty times in a week. Get out. I don’t want to […]

#the hospital

#the hospital

You whisper, “You have loved enoughNow let me be the lover” Leonard Cohen, You Have Loved Enough I overheard you talking in your dream: I don’t want to go to the hospital. I sit up to look at you: A pale, porcelain skin that used to be the white canvas for Van Gogh’s sunflowers paintings […]

#the man who went out in the night

#the man who went out in the night

We never talk about the man who went out in the night, You start the discussion – the one discussion that I never think you would start. I guess the word ‘never’ is a fickle word – a frivolous player who enjoys deceiving young girls’ hearts – but never mind. Do you want to talk […]

#3. What have you done to yourself?

#3. What have you done to yourself?

What have you done to yourself? Well, baby, I guess I have too much freedom. I’m privileged with the right to hurt myself, And the pain is keeping me sane. Baby, when everything is gone Except the dark, The open wounds and the blood Remind me of you. What have you done to yourself, you […]

#2. Melancholy

#2. Melancholy

I should really stop that habit What habit? Falling in love with everyone And anyone Who shows a little bit of interest in me. I should try to stop being so lonely And melancholy. I guess this is what you meant When you say love’s not for me. I don’t know since when the audience […]