#conversation starter

#conversation starter

You asked me over the phone if I had been well, and if I had been able to get over my eating disorder. You didn’t specify exactly which type of eating disorder because we both know better than diving deep into the matter at hand. I asked you about your loneliness, your job as a […]

#the things that help you sleep

To my unknown lover and our little joke. I will forever remember you with the not-so-authentic phrase, Je suis mermaid. After a while, you don’t even know what is helping you sleep. Be it a woman’s embrace or a man’s embrace – is there any difference? You sit on your chair and wear your tin-foil […]

Dancing

Ta ghì cho tan vỡ trái tim này Cho người ăn chơi nhíu đôi lông mày Ta cười cho xanh ngát kiếp lưu đầy Cho người vũ nữ khóc tấm thân gầy. Chưa nói yêu nhau mà lòng đã đau Chưa nói mê say mà tình đã bay Chưa biết môi em mà hồn đã […]

#stay

#stay

Please stay, I say as I look out of the window. The shadow of death is glooming over the both of us, and many other like us. Please stay, I repeat, Because once you go out, I don’t even know when you will be back, or whether you will be back at all. Please stay, […]

#i can’t do this anymore

#i can’t do this anymore

I can’t do this anymore, I say, as I hold onto her hand and lie there, breathing, convulsing, living. I can’t do this anymore, I say, as she squeezes my hands, whispering, I am here, darling, I am here. I can’t do this anymore, I think, I can’t continue to be a burden that you […]

#what’s wrong?

#what’s wrong?

You smile at your suffering The sweetest reprieve Why did you leave us? Why did you leave? – It’s Torn, Leonard Cohen Honey, what’s wrong? Nothing, I say, I just wonder how we balance the things we carry on our shoulders. Are the baggages there from the beginning? Or are we allowed the chance to […]

#how are you?

#how are you?

A tribute to my mother in free verse. Hope it will be worthy of all her sacrifices. You lie awake at night, as I lie next to you, convulsing, trembling, wandering in the land of the Death. If I must be honest, I was on the border when you turn around holding me down and […]

#i can’t sleep

#i can’t sleep

He throws the pillow at me to wake me up. It’s five in the morning. I can’t sleep, he says nonchalantly as if that is enough of a reason to wake me up. My eyes are trying to figure out whether it’s my beloved that I see, or just a cruel shadow of someone who […]

#rain

#rain

I thought we would go out today, you say, but instead, we are staying home and watching the boring TV show, and listening to the sound of the pouring rain outside – Are you out of your mind? He curls into a ball on my laps, spilling his complains the same way a bartender spills […]

#the hospital

#the hospital

You whisper, “You have loved enoughNow let me be the lover” Leonard Cohen, You Have Loved Enough I overheard you talking in your dream: I don’t want to go to the hospital. I sit up to look at you: A pale, porcelain skin that used to be the white canvas for Van Gogh’s sunflowers paintings […]